Spring weeks are quite emotionally intense for me. The days get longer, I become reflective and melancholic; perhaps it's a characteristic of mine, being a Libra with a Libra ascendant, or perhaps it's just spring asthenia. I try to stick to my routines: gym, editing my videos, managing my social media, my readings that comfort me so much and transport me to worlds where I lose myself and enjoy recreating myself. Organizing a life where every day is different isn't easy; creating order amidst chaos exhausts me and demands a lot of energy.

This week I decided to shave my beard; I like to change. I feel that when things stay the same for too long, they become boring. In spring, everything grows fast, flowers fill every space, and the clouds at dawn and dusk are filled with shades, full of colors: purple, red, blue, white. Sometimes beautiful things bring tears to my eyes; I couldn't explain why, it's always happened to me.

Sometimes I wonder if anyone will see beyond the character, beyond a pretty face, beyond a good body. Maybe no one will see it, maybe life is just that. During these very long days, my head is full of thousands of reflections, my head is steaming. One day I am very happy, another day melancholic, another day at peace, another day full of hope, another day dejected and unable to do anything, and another day with the energy of a bull. The worst days are those where all emotions come together: happy at 9 in the morning, melancholic at 11, at peace at 11:30, hopeful at lunchtime, I have coffee in the afternoon feeling dejected and with the energy of a bull shortly after.

It's curious that when I stop believing in love or in everything I work and fight for, a beautiful gesture, a gift, a letter, or just a smile or kind words from someone always comes along, and that brightens my day, makes me feel alive again. All of this gives me energy and courage to face life, a life that is not always easy… but with you, I feel it's possible.