Many of you ask me about sex with cameras and without cameras, is it the same, does it feel the same, do I enjoy it the same? Do I have sex behind the cameras? How do I experience sex in my personal life?

I will tell you my particular case without necessarily being the same for other content creators. The adult content industry is quite tough, one of the mechanisms that many creators use is to dissociate, between the person and the character, it is a complex mechanism but it plays a crucial role in the well-being and emotional security of the person behind of the character. In other words, what is behind Charlie Cherry? Who is the person hiding behind the character's mask? What happens when the curtain closes and I return home? This separation is not only a professional strategy, but also a necessary psychological defense in the face of the enormous demand from fans.

Sometimes the person and the character are confused and this is usually when the actors suffer psychological and emotional damage. We need to rest, take time for ourselves and live at least for some periods away from the cameras, it is one of the reasons why I returned to my homeland, Murcia, to live. I make my trips, my movies, record my content and return home to spend my days.

For many content creators, the identity they develop for the public is a carefully constructed facet, a kind of theatrical shield that allows them to interact with you, the fans, while keeping their private lives hidden from view. Although we project an image, it does not mean that 24/7 we are like that.

In the refuge of this alternative personality, the boundaries between reality and performance remain clear. We creators find in this separation a protection, not only against possible external judgment but also as a means to preserve our personal integrity away from the lights and cameras.

Those of us who keep differentiating well between person and character adopt that defense mechanism against the stress that our work generates due to the exposure of intimacy and people's continuous opinions. Adopting a character allows us to put an emotional distance between them and aspects of work that can be intrusive and allows us to differentiate who we are in our intimate lives and who we are in front of others.

Not to deceive ourselves, the central axis of success in the industry is the creation of a good character. Embody people's most hidden fantasies and desires but that does not necessarily represent the reality or day-to-day life of that person. The character is that, a fictional being who ensures popularity and economic success but who disappears when the book is closed, like a kind of Cinderella after 12, she loses the lights and the shadows remain.

At home I also cry, I'm not smiling every day, I also suffer from anxiety and there are days when I don't feel like having sex, just a good conversation, a movie and a blanket, a hug, or any show of genuine affection is enough.

Another of our problems is objectification and sexualization. Objectification involves reducing a person to their physical or sexual value, ignoring their humanity, their emotions and their individuality. Reduce a person to a cock or an ass, to a suck-me, to an ass-spreader, or to a mechanical pusher. Objectification always has profoundly negative effects on content creators who do not know how to escape from that spiral that consumes them and ends up generating internal conflict.

Sexualization can also be an ongoing cycle that is difficult to escape, where expectations to constantly portray a sexually charged image can encroach on everyday interactions and self-esteem. This image can trigger demands on creators to behave in ways that are incongruent with their personal identity outside the context of their work, and in some cases can create a standard to which they are expected to adhere at all times. If we add to all these high levels of anxiety and stress, an unhealthy environment of friends, and drugs, we have the perfect cocktail for everything to go wrong.

I can tell you from my personal and more human perspective that these experiences are overwhelming and can make adult content creators feel, in short, like shit. Life becomes a battlefield against yourself and the ghosts of depression, suicide and anxiolytics knock at your door.

It is essential to remember that beyond dissociation, objectification, and sexualization, content creators are complex individuals with rich, nuanced lives and personalities. I just want to ask you that it is great that you keep your fantasy, and our goal is to entertain, amuse, evoke that world that excites you and envelops you, but we are also like you, we have our days, we make mistakes, we suffer, we get stressed and we cry.